I’ve acknowledged that I need to grow career wise. This includes going back to school and getting a more stable position/job. The going back to school is currently on the must do list. In terms of career, I’m kind of at a stand still. I think I may need to go back to the vision board.
In my current position, I have watched my entire team move on within the company or externally. I report to work everyday without fail and want to do more. What can I do here? With over a decade of healthcare experience, a couple years as an administrative assistant and 2+ in social media, I really don’t know which way to go. This assignment hasn’t yielded an optimal lateral move for a single mother of the high school junior. So, I took a leap and applied for an admin assistant position. It provides a more traditional work day and full benefits of being a core member of this company.
That was almost 2 weeks ago. I was feeling confident in my chances to secure this position. However, I knew I had to continue on in my current position no matter what happens. The time came and went that I was informed I would have feedback and I didn’t hear anything. I didn’t want to stress about it, even though I wanted it more than anything right now. Then in the twilight of night and probably my second dream, the hiring manager informed me I didn’t get the job. How could I hold on to that? I believe in the subconscious messages, thoughts and signs. After this occurrence, I let this option go. In the meantime, what am I to do now.
The reality of this job is that it’s contract. It lacks some fundamental benefits important to growth retirement planning, tuition assistance, internal movement and a base salary. These are all important to me. I’ve experienced the advantages of having these offers through a company. Then there is the feeling of not being included in the core of the company. I feel indispensable.
At this point, I have two questions for myself:
- Can you stay and work on other projects to satisfy your need for a change? or
- Do you keep looking to find the things you value from a company?
This decision may be one of the hardest I’ve had since being here. I truly like this position but on the other hand who am I fooling. I need security at this stage of my life. Let’s face it once again, I’m a single mother with a child aspiring to go to college. Some of that money is going to come out of my pocket. I need more!
Whatever I decide I’ll still be smiling!